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Look Who’s Two

kimberly August 7th, 2010

Whatever happened to my baby girl? Somehow, in the blink of an eye, Leah has turned two years old.

Two Years Old

Leah, you continue to delight me in new and completely unexpected ways each day, bringing a certain spontaneity to my life that I never knew was missing before you joined our family. The way you bounce between maniacal laughter and uncontrollable sobbing, alternately cuddling your dolls and beating their heads against the stairs certainly keeps me on my toes and I wake up each morning never knowing what the day will bring. I live for your contagious giggles, tiny kisses and hugs so tight they have the ability to cut off circulation to various appendages.

I feel so blessed to be your mama.

Happy birthday, Cupcake!

Leah's Second Birthday

Lazy Days

kimberly July 13th, 2010

We’re only two weeks into summer holidays and already I’m so in love with the relative laziness that I can’t even fathom returning to our usual somewhat-crazed schedule in September. There is something so peaceful about not having to rush off to school, clubs and meetings that I am doing my best to make the most of this respite.

Toronto got hit with such a horrendous heat wave (at some points it felt like 42°C+ outside) that we were forced to spend a lot more time indoors than I had planned. Even in the shade, it was just too humid and sticky and gross to venture far from the air conditioned bliss of home. It doesn’t help that Adam hates the sun and heat so even early mornings were just too hot to go outside. (Leah doesn’t seem to have much of an opinion yet — she just likes getting to wear her sunhat.)

Bookworm

Thankfully, Adam and Leah have managed to become contented (albeit occasionally reluctant) playmates, with Adam orchestrating elaborate dramas in which Leah is alternately an enthusiastic participant or a very vocal protester. Either way, hilarity ensues. At least for me.

Last week their game involved captaining their own laundry basket ships.

Laundry Basket Boat

Leah’s boat was abandoned when Adam insisted on having the boats separated because the captains were not getting along. (They kept grabbing toys out of each other’s basket and the screaming was reaching unbearable levels.) Finally Leah gave up and went to plot a new way to harass Adam, who promptly fell asleep.

Laundry Basket Boat

When the humidity finally broke, I had two kids who were sorely suffering from cabin fever and were grateful for any and all opportunities to play outside. Our backyard is small and overrun with weeds (the only plant that thrives on our watch — Todd and I have black thumbs) but is the perfect space for soccer games and running and tumbling.

Future World Cup Champ

Got the Ball

I wish the summer could last forever. At least for now. I recognize that in a few weeks I could be climbing the walls willing September to hurry up. But until then, I’m enjoying the slower pace and (mostly) happy kids.

Tough Love

kimberly June 29th, 2010

Occasionally, people will ask if we’ve tried <insert worked-with-their-kids option here> to get Leah to eat more and/or consume more calories. I’ve accepted all ideas gratefully, because you never know when you’re going to hit on the one thing that turns it all around for Leah.

Here is a not-nearly-exhaustive list of things we have tried over the past year:

  • making food available on demand
  • modelling good eating
  • letting Leah graze throughout the day
  • adding an extra scoop of powdered formula to each of her bottles
  • weaning her from formula
  • praising her for taking even the tiniest of bites
  • sticking to scheduled short meal times
  • adding 35% whipping cream to her milk
  • bribing
  • offering Leah all manner of foods I would never consider feeding a toddler under normal circumstances (hot dogs, chocolate chips, Heluva Good sour cream dip) — Leah had no interest in any of it
  • pleading
  • using nutritional supplements
  • adding oil/dips/spreads/sauces to her food.

Last week we met with the child psychoanalyst to whom we were referred by SickKids. The g-tube clinic team suspected that Leah’s aversion to eating was behavioural since all her tests came back normal, ruling out anatomical issues.

Todd and I were pretty excited about this appointment, hopeful that with some behavioural therapy, we could help Leah make some progress and render surgery unnecessary. Sadly, our hopes were dashed when, after the hour-long session, the doctor declared that Leah’s eating issues were unlikely to be solved with therapy. Apparently, aside from praising Leah (which we shouldn’t do, because it’s just food and eating isn’t something to get excited about), we’re doing everything right. That was nice to hear, but it left us with another dead end.

Feeling rather hopeless, yesterday we met with the dietitian and gastroenterologist again (Leah has gained a whopping 35 grams since March), where we were provided with yet another list of things to try — mostly contradicting our previous set of instructions. Truly, it feels like we’re just grasping at straws at this point but we’re willing to try anything. Anyway, we have now moved into the “tough love” phase of feeding Leah.

  • Provide only three meals plus two snacks each day. Once Leah leaves the table, there is no opportunity to return for more.
  • Limit Leah’s milk/cream consumption to one 9-ounce cup per day, to be drunk only after she has eaten.
  • Do not permit grazing between meals.

In theory, all of the above work to make Leah hungry enough to eat what is provided during her scheduled eating times. In reality, it also causes Leah to bang on the fridge, turn around and slide slowly to floor, screaming, likely wondering why we aren’t feeding her. Tough love is tough on everyone.

We’re only 24 hours into the new eating plan (and we’re scheduled to meet back with the dietitian in three weeks), but I’m happy to report that Leah ate a pretty decent dinner last night and has spit out food only twice. Progress indeed.

Scheduled

kimberly June 18th, 2010

As of Monday afternoon, we now have a date for Leah’s g-tube surgery: October 12.

Last Friday we met with various people at SickKids’ g-tube clinic: two nurse practitioners, a dietitian and a physician. What we thought was going to be an easy, one-hour appointment stretched to well over three hours by the time we learned about the surgery (and actually got to see what the g-tube looks like), went over Leah’s daily intake and got some other food ideas to try and finally chatted with the doctor about next steps.

On a good day, Leah probably consumes only 70% of her daily calorie requirements. On a good day. A less than stellar day likely only nets Leah about half of her needed calories. That’s kind of scary, and so while she has grown a little taller over the past couple of months, she hasn’t gained a single gram. Eek.

Waiting and Eating

All of Leah’s tests and scans came back completely normal, so what we’re left with is a happy, energetic little girl who just doesn’t eat. Because there appears to be nothing anatomically wrong that is preventing her from eating, the doctor recommended waiting till October for the surgery so that we could work on behavioural causes over the next several months and possibly make enough progress so as to warrant the g-tube unnecessary.

To that end, we’re meeting with a child and youth psychoanalyst on Monday, who can hopefully provide some assistance from a behavioural perspective. In addition to just a general lack of interest in food, Leah has also developed the gross habit of chewing food (that she usually enjoys) and then spitting it out in little piles around the house. Ugh. I remain optimistic that the psychoanalyst can help though I remain realistic about the likelihood of surgery.

The dietitian we met with was great and offered us several food suggestions that we’ve been trying with Leah (unfortunately, most ideas haven’t been met with much enthusiasm on her part). Todd and I have already been adding 35% whipping cream to her cups of whole milk, but we were advised to be making greater use of spreads and dips, like cream cheese and ranch dip on vegetables and agave nectar drizzled on apple slices. Guess what? Leah scrapes off the cream cheese and eats just the cucumber rounds and flings the extra-sweet fruit off her plate. It was also suggested that I add chocolate chips to her trail mix, but she eats the raisins, dried apple pieces and pecans and leaves behind all the bits of chocolate. Or worse, picks them out and dumps them on the floor. Sigh.

Today I gave her some pretzels to munch on and when she seemed to be losing interest, I tried to model “eating the yummy pretzel.” Leah took a tiny nibble and then poked the remainder into her bellybutton. If I didn’t know better, I’d think she was mocking me.

Scanned Again

kimberly June 7th, 2010

Ugh. It seems like all my news these days is about our various trips to SickKids. Last Thursday we were back for another test: this time a gastric emptying scan.

The appointment began with Leah drinking radioactive milk. Don’t you love the Radioactive Material sticker?

Radioactive Milk

The nurse administering the scan asked us how much milk Leah could drink within 10 minutes and we settled on 50 mL. After having fasted since the night before, one might think Leah would have been chomping at the bit to get some nourishment into her, but I knew better. With some encouragement, she got through the full amount but wouldn’t have drunk another drop without some serious resistance.

Scanning

Once Leah finished drinking, she was strapped onto a bed and the scan began, measuring how quickly the radioactive material left her system. If the material (the white blob in the photo below) takes too long to leave her stomach, it could provide a reason for Leah not eating: the food sits in her stomach for longer than normal so she doesn’t feel hungry.

Leah's Scan

Initially the scan lasts an hour and while we were happy to let the nurse play a DVD to entertain Leah, she fell asleep within 10 minutes and slept straight through the remainder of the test.

Sleeping on the Job

Unfortunately, we then had to wait around for another hour because the doctor felt she hadn’t emptied enough of the material, so another one-minute scan was ordered once the hour had passed.

The upside to all this waiting around is that I have had lots of knitting time. I’m currently working on a Cleite shawl and a Japanese Vines scarf.

Cleite in Progress

Both projects feature very monotonous knitting that I can easily put aside when necessary and then pick back up again.

Japanese Vines in Progress

To save ourselves having to drive downtown (and the exorbitant parking fees), we took the Go Train to this appointment. Leah found this to be far more exciting than the car as she could move around a bit.

Riding the Train

And once the thrill of umpteen thousand trees wore off, she did what any expert commuter does: check out the local news.

Riding the Train

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